Bad Idea

The thing about anxiety and depression is they creep up on you. Well, for me, at least. Bad days hit me like a truck and then they don’t go away for a long time. Saturday I felt off. By Saturday night/early Sunday morning I was a wreck. It’s gonna be Tuesday tomorrow and I still feel like absolute shit.

I can’t explain it. I feel like grabbing my purse, my dog, and driving far away. Going somewhere new. Starting clean. But I get realistic and it’s even more depressing. I’m not done with my degree yet. Where the hell am I gonna go and what the hell would I do for money? So, leaving isn’t an option, but staying doesn’t feel good, either.

Stuck.

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2 thoughts on “Bad Idea

  1. Not enough people talk about this particular feeling and I’m glad you were able to describe it so well, because I think there are some people (myself included) who relate and just that feeling of relation/not being alone can be very helpful. Thank you for sharing.

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    1. It’s so overwhelming. I’m wondering when it gets better, life is a cruel joke sometimes. Is it ever better? I mean, just when you think everything is going great, there’s another breakdown. Bam. I’m glad you understood exactly what I meant, even though that’s probably a bad thing because it means you struggle with it too. You get what I mean. Thank you for your comment, it means a lot.

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